A brief of Me

I call myself "the occasional writer"
because I do write for fun.
I think of life as a continual learning process
so it is difficult
to single out specific moment
when something's happen to me that has made all the difference in my life.
I remember many moments
where my life has been turned around
upside down
inside out.
For many years,
there has been up and down
and many suffering from heartache of rejection.
My mom is one of the most influential person in my life,
if not the most.
She was not a broadminded like me
but she is a very good lady,
a strong lady.
She is a well organized person.
She was not a highly educated person -she hadn't finished high school-
but she had a better understanding of people,
and of life.
Her moral values,
commonsense approach to life
were the foundation of my upbringing.
But it wasn't until I grew up that I realized how much her values shaped my life.
I have tremendous love and respect for her.

Lost

When you are inside sorrow,
You just disconnect from everything.
And everybody.
You don't feel anything.
You just stop feeling.
It kind of works like a tunnel,
and you're inside,
alone,
all the time.
It's like you're in a tiny little world somewhere.
And you can't really pay attention to anything outside of that little world anymore.
You often think that going outside is normal
and easy experience,
But there's color and sound,
and that kind of stuff is very overstimulating.
There's so much to take in that you can't really process at all...
You just get unconnected from the world
And everybody......

in My PURSE

You'll find______
1. Aspirin:
will be my best bet for sudden headache!!
It's also known as significantly increase heart-attack sufferers' chances of survival.
I dont think I have a heart-failure problem
(But I do have a problem with my heart: heartache LOL).

2. Vitalkey Chain:
It holds downlable medical information on USB drive, providing medical personnel info.
I have a bad reaction to anything contain Sulpha,
so the vitalkey chain will provide this kind of info to medical attendee in case of emergency
-knock knock on the wood!

3. CellPhone:
Well, get in touch with me my friends!
It can be extra helpfull with ICE (In Case of Emergency)
And...well, I get lost so easily.........I am sending an SOS message thru' the cellphone.

4. Face Tissue:
I am having problem with Pollen,
my eyes will be watery when I lower down my window
while I am driving through the city in a beautiful crispy day.....
(Need to wipe it off)

soulmate

The Quality
I look in
Man
or
Woman:
Passion.
Enthusiasm.
Supportive.
I am enthusiastic about everything.
If I am going to be with someone,
I need him/her to be as enthusiastic as I am about.
I also like to support the person that I engage.
So it will be so unfair if I don't get it in return.

One Man Woman:
Monogamy is definitely for me,
if I am w/someone and I am thinking sexually about someone else,
something is very wrong with me.
But I don't think human being is monogamous by nature.
It's not practical and it takes work.
But when it does work,
it's so wonderful,
because you trust the person and you're with him through thick and thin.

frame of Mind

My favorite place to go is Library..........
If I am stressed or having a hard time,
I'll be reading a book,
any kind of books I find interesting
-morelikely about travelling -
and my mind will wander to all different places nice.
The thing I like to do
is listening to the music.
The music plays the main role in my life.
When I am happy
I can enjoy listening to any type of music,
it does enhance my mood.
When I am not so happy -upset,
I'll become a very very picky person.
I am proud of certain things I've overcome:

I had an unconvitional childhood.
I think of all the ways my life could have been different
but I am proud that I pursued something I'am passionate about.
I've also had a lot of luck.
I am in a situation I always felt I was going to be in
-but that doesn't mean that everyday I don't think my job isn't the most disposable thing around.
I would like to accomplish something more than just looking pretty in a gown or shot.
I also have a low-key lifestyle.
I buy cheap stuff,
discounted stuff.
I don't care about the brand,
I am not a branded mind,
that's not me!

I set my mind to make every today is the first day of the rest of my life.
I want to maximize the purpose of each day of my life.
And think that I am perfect for my own good.

Art

I am crazy about art.
I think art should be sensual.
Not necessarily sexual.
That's a huge difference
between that N and that X!